The Emo Ride ..

.. Sometimes I feel like I'm in one ..

So, it's that day again ..
You know, when you just feel ackward and truely not on the amusing side of life ..
Yeah, I have those sometimes .. more than I want to ..
But, as a woman who's trying to do the right thing everyday,
it is sometime a bit tough to keep that Kodak smile on your face, when you feel .. almost .. deplorable (ooh dramatic).

I started this year with an unexpected enthousiasm (I was the one finding it unexpected) that things would take a turn in my life!
I believe God to turn my life around and expend my horizon to unthinkable heights and beautiful weights! I believe it .. I truely do!
But me, being so impatient x extremely anxious, wants it more than anything and may I add, Right Now!
Really, it's a sad sight to see .. even for myself! If I don't see a slight of the promised blessings today ..

I get dissappointed.

I'll be sad without even the slightest person knowing that I am! 'Cause me, I'll smile so the world can't see
my depressing inside thoughts x doubts! I know that changes are coming, but the daily tasks,
that are always there at the same time, all day everyday, are making it hard to believe that there is more than .. well, this.
Did you ever felt that way? That the routine in your life just wears you out?
There is MORE to life, I know that much! I see it all around me! Young people making it B.I.G in life.
Yep .. seeing dreams come true for people that are close to you makes you feel .. left behind in some way ..

Doubt. A bitter hope-killer.

And then you ask yourself .. Will that happen to me? Am I worthy to be just like them?

In those moments, you know what I tell myself? "Snap out of it!"
The most selfish thought that you can ever have is the poison, atrocious thought of self-pity!

First of all: It's selfish to think that you're this sad lil' nobody. The biggest problem in this world today
is people wanting to be something they're not. Or being exactly like the one they look up to.
Leading to the fact that they get dissappointed x not liking themself, because they are not as pretty or handsome as their rolemodel.
You know that those same people have their insecurities too, right?
But they were bold enough to be the best they can be: THEMSELFS!
They stayed loyal to that person and let God do the rest. And look at them now!

Learn from it!

And stop being pitiful and lazy! "Get up, get out n DO SOMETHING" then! (red. Outkast)
You need to move forward and be active! Work HARD towards your goal x stay true to YOU!
And even if you've worked hard and it doesn't go as fast as you wanted to .. work HARDER ..
Pump up the volume! Let the boombox scream out the bass!
Yes, you will be boo-ed and laughed at .. but do YOU! And stay humble x do the right thing ..
'Cause at the end, that's what pays off!

Second: You doubt that God will bless you! Actually: You don't believe Him at His word;.
But don't you know that He'll give you what you've asked for in prayer?! (see end of post)

And thirth (I'm pumped right nah!): You don't know where that person has been/had to go through
before he/she came to this point of amazing blessings. God gave that time for that person to shine! And so will you! And so will I!

"Have faith that you wil receive whatever you ask for in prayer." - Matt 21-22

So .. now I can brush that sad, puppyface, I-just-don't-understand attitude off me.
It's almost weekend! Let's have some fun, shall we?

And though I'm clearly giving you the impression of being a mental-coach;
Giving you the BOOST on believing in yourself, you do realize that this post is actually for me too, right?

"Don't fret, today wasn't the time of your breakthrough ..
don't stop moving, today is one day/step/moment closer" - Frizz

Till nxt writings

*Mwah* Frizz